Today I read one of those horrible articles that the internet seems to have been designed for, consisting of 40 tips for becoming as successful as the author: "How to Live a Full Life (and Leave Nothing on the Table) by 30." Yes, that's really the title. Normally I wouldn't publish a blog post in response, but because I managed to Come Down with a Chronic Illness (and Achieve Basically Nothing Else) by 30 and Am Currently Feeling the Aftereffects of One of the Treatments I Periodically Take, Which Causes Me to Feel High and Lose My Inhibitions, I'm just going to go for it. (Author's point #33: "Seriously, You Can Do Whatever You Want." Why thank you, young man, I think I will!)
The author's name is Ryan Holiday, and he has published several books. It sounds like he is also very wealthy, because note point #15, "Sooner Is Not Better," where he says he had a weird goal of becoming a millionaire by 25, but it didn't happen until after…
When I first got my Lyme diagnosis, I went to the library and
borrowed all the books on Lyme disease I could find (there were only
three, if I recall correctly). One book was the personal account of a
woman whose undiagnosed Lyme crossed her placenta and infected her
unborn son, who later died in childhood after horrific symptoms. That
book and a second featured images of magnified ticks, and I would peek
through the pages taking care not to accidentally touch the photographs.
I realized I might never have children. I returned the books to the
The third book was Biography of a Germ
by Arno Karlen, a scientific essay on the Lyme spirochete. I didn't
finish it because I took it back to the library as part of my
stop-scaring-myself-silly dragnet. But I remembered it fondly. The
author methodically explored the Lyme bacteria, Borrelia burdorferi,
as an organism in its own right, a marvel of evolutionary survival that
relies on a complex chain of ticks, small ani…
Ever since I was six or so, I have battled alarm clocks. They've jolted me awake. I've turned them off. I've hit snooze. I've gone back to sleep. I've tried to awaken myself gently with the classical music station or Aaron Copland CDs. No matter what, I can't get out of bed when the alarm says I should.
When I was a child, my father and I would race after the school bus. As an adult, I was chronically late for work. I'm not a morning person. I don't sleep well and rarely feel rested. Lymies don't feel well in the mornings anyway, and it didn't help that I'm easily startled and was being shocked awake each day with the equivalent of those paddles they use on heart attack victims. All morning I'd feel groggy and queasy and antsy, with adrenaline pumping through me.
A couple years ago I got sick and had to stay home from work for a few days. When I was ready to get back to the office, I took it easy for a few alarm-clock-free mornings while…